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6/27/2010

Our first week with Charlotte

I told Ryan last Saturday morning, the 19th, that I was going to have her. Today. He looked at me and said I better have a talk with her then.

I feel like I was in labor with her all week. Contracting and contracting and timing them through the night, but I knew they were not quite strong enough to go in. I was nervous about being an hour away from the hospital and really concerned that my movers would be arriving in 4 days to pack us up. Either I was going to have her the weekend previous or the weekend after, but not during the week. I had just passed my 38 week mark- the longest I had ever carried a baby. And I still cannot believe how moving and birth all came in the same week- 2 life changing events that Ryan said we should never plan to do again in the same week.

So last Saturday started out with prayer. I started with the sincerest prayer that day to please help her to arrive. I explained my case. After some house work I went walking with the kids while pushing the double jogger.

I walked again in the afternoon.

Again in the evening.

I talked to Charlotte all day. I prayed and prayed.

I could tell by the afternoon my contractions were stronger. By the evening I was really feeling pressure. By 10 pm I asked Ryan to time me. He said okay. He went to get some water. Half and hour later I went to find him. He'd gone to bed. I said, "Hey! What are you doing? I think I'm in labor." (Poor Ryan. All week he dealt with me whining over contractions. They kept clearing his patient calendar. He was patient, but I am sure he thought I was a drama mama by the end of the week.)

I had talked to my mom throughout the evening and she had already told me, "you need to go in Lacey!". When I called her about 11pm without hesitation she said "I'll be right there." She and Jaocb drove out to stay the night with our sleeping kids.

By 12:30 I was in the Labor and Delivery triage. They monitored and checked me. I was a thin 4, every 3-5 minutes. They told me I was not in "active enough labor". I could not believe it! Ryan could not believe it. There was some "discussion" between him and the nurse and her needing to talk to the doctor and Ryan pulling out his handheld OBGYN standards or something in his iphone. They told me to walk. I told them I couldn't. And by that point I was concentrating through each contraction.

Finally, they admitted me.

I got an epidural at 3am. My water broke on it's own at 5am. At 7 am they increased my pitocin. I was still a 4. At 7:30 the nurse increased it again, stood in my room charting and mentioned that my doctor had to run out for 30 minutes. Within 5 minutes I knew I was ready to push. From a 4 to 10 within just those few minutes. She checked me and said "don't push, just breathe." She paged the doctor and Ryan woke up to what he says was the "easiest labor ever! I just slept through it." The doctor arrived. I pushed. She was face up. I struggled. I said something like, "why are all my babies face up?" and "this is the last time right?" and then she was here.

A little banged up on her face- a credit from a face up delivery. Pressure/ stork bites on her face. A flattened nose. The trademark round face of our babies. She was still not quite named yet. Ryan and I both were teary. She was perfect. Ryan said it was the best father's day gift he would ever have. We both had known she was missing from our family.

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My mom said when Landon woke up first and found her in bed at our house, he asked what she was doing there. "Your mom had your baby sister, " she said. They were so excited to see her and arrived at noon.

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My mom took the kids back to her house. Ryan left with them to help out. Or rather take a nap. My grandma and mom brought me in "Sunday dinner" in the evening. Ryan came back after the kids were in bed at my moms that night. He took Charlotte to the nursery when she had her first bath.
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I was not able to sleep well. My doctor recommended that I stay the 2 nights. But, not sleeping well and feeling anxious about movers coming in I told Ryan to take me home. I wish I could have had more time to rest... but it just didn't work out that way.

Charlotte lost a bit too much weight in the first 3 days. She was also jaundiced. I took her in everyday to have blood work checked and have her reweighed. Once my milk came in, she seemed much more satisfied and got below the 10% weight loss that the pediatrician wanted.

We came home on Monday afternoon. Tuesday we loaded our storage unit. Wednesday the movers started packing. And Thursday too. Friday they finished unloading us on base. And Ryan and I both realized it was our 11 year anniversary.

We had nice meals brought in, friends drop by and grab our kids, and people stopping by all week to see how they could help. My mom and brothers helped a couple days and kept kids overnight again as well. I kept telling myself that it was going to be hard for just a few days, and then it would be over.

(our Bishop/neighbor. Always stopping over. Always re-naming our kids.)
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I'm still sitting in mounds of boxes. And will for weeks yet I think. But mostly I keep telling Ryan I just want to enjoy her. I sense that the time of holding our sweet new baby really is fleeting. I know they change so fast. I know she will grow and just don't want her too. I nurse her and look at her and love on her and just cherish her. She is such a gift. I cannot give thanks enough....

Poor little "Charlie" her daddy says. Life will not always be this crazy.

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6/21/2010

In love again



Such a whirlwind... such a proud dad, and a happy big sister.... many hands to help. I need to crash for the next day or two. Post more in a few days.

6/18/2010

Sweet Kentucky

I have struggled to come up with the "right" words for this post. Can I say that I cried all day. And that I didn't throw myself this "party" for several days. I just kept looking in the box with such overwhelming appreciation. Just the thought enough mattered the most- all the darling things inside were just extra.

For some reason I have been blessed with heavenly visiting teachers over the past few years. (Hi Stephanie and Carla! Hello Holly!)

Both my visiting teachers in Kentucky happened to live right across the street from me. Kathryn of Little Nanny Goat, and Traci, aka- "neighba-lady" of Amazing Mae were "assigned" to me. From delivering upside down pizza dinners when I was sick, letting our kids roam the street together, and phone calls letting me know about those pork roasts on sale for Cafe Rio, my life became daily interweaved with them. So many of my Kentucky friends became "like" family. And even a year later, I still miss my life there. (It's still a bit lonely here on occasion- not been on one girls night out!)

Traci lovingly hosted a surprise baby shower by mail for me. Who needs a shower by there 5th baby! Not really anyone I'd say. And I'm not even her assignment anymore... I am so undeserving of this good sweet Kentucky love. Thank you dear Traci. I still wish I'd hear those little Gage knocks over here!

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The decorations, Traci handmade me a fabric banner- which of course I love!

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baby shower game prizes, filled with chocolates and lip balm and...

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her signature pendant that she sells in her Etsy shop with our good friend Melissa who blogs at the Polkadot Chair.

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so many sweet things, handmade blankets and outfits and accessories
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and these two little darling handmade dresses. Made each by Traci and Melissa. I actually saw Melissa's Tuesday Tutorial where she made a stroller quilt and thought it was so sweet- little did I know it would make it's way to me! Oh thank you Melissa!
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I tried to picture everything... but it was just too much. I know some of you were busy moving and were certainly busy with your families, and church callings/camp commitments. Thank you each for your gifts. You are all too much! You touched my heart... and I love you all.

6/16/2010

no show

Still no baby. I went in over the weekend. They sent me home. I've never had that happen in all my pregnancy labors. I told Ryan I was never talking to my OB again- even worse, never going to see him again. (Oh my pride.) Having had babies now in 3 different states, I think there is a regional delivery experience in each one. Really.

But, I know she will come.

I'll spare the details on my "progression". And the whining about being up til 3am contracting for the last several nights. And how really uncomfortable I am.

My OB says to call to schedule my induction. If I need it. Next Thursday. I told him that wouldn't work. My movers would be here. I mean, how will that work? And I never need inductions! Whose body is this anyways?

6/10/2010

Just about time


I'm 37 weeks. My doctor took me off my contraction controller medicines last week. (terb it's called- I hate that stuff, this has been my 3rd pregnancy on this stuff. I think I'm 31 years too old). Between getting ready to move again and all the kid stuff this pregnancy has gotten lost a little bit. I know she is coming. I worry can I manage. And I dread her delivery, with each pregnancy more and more. Please let her not be sick or need to stay in the NICU.

I have to deliver in Boise. An hour away or so. I am a VBAC again. Base won't treat me. Which is fine, I don't really want to have Ryan's colleagues see me when I am in labor and at my "best' ;)

I have her things in my room. Why put them away? 2 weeks from now at the new house I will.

Emma named her Sunshine. We have it fairly narrowed down- and it's not Sunshine. I don't think people like the name so much- but I think I am getting over it. Ryan and I keep coming back to this name. What color is her hair they ask? And they argue over who is going to sit by her in the car and who is going to feed her (to which I explain "Just me! Don't put anything in her mouth!)

I have sewed a bit for her. Burp cloths and stripped her car seat. Bought a bag off Etsy and added a flower broche that I made.

Love this burp cloth pattern. Sized mine up more. Bought her a blanket off Etsy from here.
And my new car seat- I followed this Etsy pattern.

As of yesterday. 5-7 minute contractions all afternoon. He made me lay down and take 2 terbs. My doctor says he gives me 5 days tops. He wants to me just stay in Boise. I told him I have too many things to manage back at home. He understood. He called me this morning to check on me... he's worried an hour away is too far for me. What do doctors know anyways? ;)

ps- I know he won't be the baby anymore. It makes me teary. This big lug is so heavy and always banged up by something. I've been trying to hold him and rock him still. He's losing his place. And part of me is never ready for that change. He'll be 2 next thursday. And I love that he calls for me "mama" all over the house to find me. If I could just freeze part of this with him- I'll give up the hard Sunday's for sure though.



Life here

- We are packed and purged (again! and just a year later from the last move, I still made several trips to the DI storage). Our movers are scheduled to pick us up the 20th. Our house on base is vacant this tuesday, and we'll get a walk through then. They might move our movers arrival date up- depending on the condition of the house.. and oh, our impending birth.

- School wrapped up. Emma's preschool graduation was silly. I'm telling the truth!


- Swim team for Tanner kicks into meet time. He's been practicing for months now. He has really improved. He starts "tackle" football in August. Please let me not be the mom running on the field if he gets pummeled.

- We started Mom Summer School work today. We'll see if the incentives after each 15 days is enough to keep them motivated.

-Ryan's parents were here this weekend. Have you ever seen a grandma jump on the trampoline? Do you have one like that? You can borrow ours.

- Ryan officially starts his "civilian job" in a few weeks. Yay for us! Two shifts will equal his monthly salary (pre-bonus). Should I admit that? How about, those two shifts will pay our student loans. I guess it's not really my increase then...

- Ryan's almost released as the YM 1st counsilor. They released me last week. I still have this BBQ activity to get done this weekend (which I told my Bishop I refuse to be in labor and running around, so I might not be there). And finally I finished a DVD project(my poor Relief Society) that the presidency asked me to do for birthdays. Let's just say 120/160ish cases is a pain to print and load. And I only loaded half. I gave the prints for them to do eventually.